carousel of life

I have been a yoga enthusiast and nothing else interests me much. A few weeks back, in the absence of my Yoga trainer, I thought of going for a quick morning walk. Out came my stylish purple joggers and I am ready. So I chose a big public joggers park near my area which has a huge jogging track, kids play area, open gym; which means a lot of bahubali type machines for exercise. They look like more to give you injury with sudden shock, not maintained well. Like Miranda Piesly, I start walking, looking at each and every corner of the place and passers by. What I see around is Some serious marathon enthusiast jogging with right pace and balance, full black attire, fitness band, music plugged in, jogging, sweating and focused on the track. Nothing bothers their attention. Ladies with colourful athleisure, neon pink & flourescent green, freshly combed all open hair with a cap on top (ooh suntan), their manicured hands are busy changing music on the mobile while walking on the tra...

  I face this on a daily basis, in some form or the other. I am still blessed that I get equal opportunities, once of course I am done with my homely duties. Men will probably never understand. Or may be we teach women to be little more confident or arrogant or whatever it takes for them to put their word across.  

I recently watched the movie "The Founder" Had been on my TBW for a while now. I liked it very much for a lot of reasons. It showed the patience and persistence of Ray Croc, his belief in his work, hardwork despite lot of initial failures and struggle. I wanted my daughter to learn from it and hence I watched it again with her.  All she could absorb from the movie was that this guy stole the shop from the real owners and has no right to do. Also that he left his wife and married someone who was already married.  She is only 11 years and is already learning moral policing from the surroundings.  All my effort to explain that had it not been for Ray Croc, she would have probably not even known about the brand. Still it is wrong in her mind.  His decision to divorce and marry again is harshly judged by the fact that a marriage is forever.  In both the cases of business and marriage, the morality rules heavily.  Both were the cases of being complacent and not c...

 Leadership and vulnerability sounds like oxymoron. We all look up to our leaders when in doubt, when we falter and we want support. We give them God like stature. But here is the thing.  We are not God. We are mortals. We have weaknesses and we have limited capabilities.  Seeing people behaving larger than life and not accepting any fault makes them so unreal. Why cant we be open about our sentiments and be vulnerable and real. This is not a war and we are not in an emergency. Also we are not superheroes. I would rather work with someone who has the courage enough to accept their mistake and are flexible to course correct. 

 If only we all had the courage or rather confidence to be okay whether people like us or not. So much time and effort is spent on being liked and this people-pleasing habit does not do us good in the long term. Whatever we do, we are going to make some people upset. Some people will always expect more from us. "If only we could do this" "If only you were this" Never-ending and it takes a toll on mental health. I would rather focus on what I think is right and work on it. It can be so liberating to think that I dont have to worry about what others think of me.  Of course it requires persistence work on ourselves and is a lifelong journey. We must have that courage and faith in ourselves.

 I am a working woman and I have my own needs. My daughter complains that she does not get a relaxed morning time with me. On Weekdays mornings she has to rush for school and on weekend mornings, I am out for my yoga. And of course, relaxed evening time with her does not count at all.   Relaxed morning time bhi chaiye. I feel guilty. Some days, I skip my yoga class and be with her.  In all this, the father is out of the country for 6 months and does not need to be a part of any of these relaxed things. Only mother.  Why? I ask. Cos he is getting a MacBook when he returns. Wow. so the MacBook makes up for the absence of relaxed time. Such is the time that we are living in. I would give her the same cos she is only 12 years old and can do without such advanced products.