carousel of life

 Last week, during one of my calls, my boss was really appreciative of the fact that I am very hardworking and sincere. I try to do all the tasks assigned to me and generally be available.  And while this is a great compliment to be resilient and persistent, my stupid brain was itching that someone would say that I am very intelligent. A lot of people do find me smart and intelligent, but listening to my boss would have been kick ass.  My husband thinks that he is very smart and intelligent, and hence, he gets everything easily.  but I realize that intelligence or talent is never enough. Of course, they are needed to start something, but the real differentiator is how well you are able to handle and adapt to the change, and learn quickly.  I come from a very small place, and my parents are so proud to see where I am. I have friends who are happy to see me strong and independent, and stand up for myself. I think I am doing great. If only I could learn to love and...

 I think today is the perfect time for me to start writing again. I don't claim that I write well or that I am interested in becoming a writer. But I definitely want a medium to express what I want to say. So here I am. I won't say that I am going to be regular from now on because I don't know what my mind will say after a few weeks. When I want or don't want to do something, my mind finds a reason. So it's crucial that we find a belief, find a faith, and stand up for it in all circumstances.  No one is going to do that for us. No one is going to help us and will know what we are going through. Even when your heart and mind tell you something, take it with a pinch of salt and be wary of sharing your life and dreams with anyone. It's your life, and you have to guard it well.  So today onwards, I am going to live a little more for myself and be the b**** that I always wanted to be.